A lot of tears later

I'm still feeling horrible.
I thought I was coming out of the woods last week, because I had a couple of pretty good days, which means I was still very nauseous but I wasn't getting sick. Well it came back in full effect and worse by Saturday morning. I don't sleep well at night and when I do fall asleep I soon wake up to make a visit to the lavatory. Last night I was at my wits end, and I began to sob. I just want to play with the children, sit on the couch, clean up my house, get it back in order from when we had it painted. It's just a mess and completely cluttered and looking chaotic. Now some of you may be shocked by that statement, because clutter is normally my nature. But the last couple of years I have grown out of that, and like clean appearances, but with clutter tucked neatly away in it's respected place.
I just want to get out of bed. I have been in it for 3 weeks now, 5 weeks of feeling like complete crap, like having the flu or a hangover 24 hours a day. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.
My mom came on Saturday for what was supposed to be a semi vacation, a trip to Sedona. I gave her time to back out, but she was insistent to come and help, much needed help for I know Mike is at his wits end as well. She has been just great. The children are having a blast with her. I love hearing them all laugh from my bedroom. She has made sure that they are all fed, changed clothes/diapers/yucky poops, and napped/bathed/ whatever comes her way. She has been such a huge help and we appreciate it. I feel bad about being in the bed and not seeing her, so I tried to be out of it. Boy was that a dumb thing to do, which might be half the reason I'm getting so sick again and in the middle of the night.
She leaves on Wednesday morning. Mike's parents come Wednesday night for 10 days. I begged Mike to let them know how bad it was here and he did. Giving them the chance to reschedule. But I hear Grammy said, she's given me almost 4 grandchildren, so I would do anything for her. Not sure what was changed in translation, but it was a relief. Getting out of bed at this point is now terrifying, which just used to be the house.
My MOMS club has organized meals since last week, being delivered every other day. That has been a HUGE help. And we just feel so cared for!!
So Grammy if your reading this, I hope you are fully prepared for this ;-) It's a lot of work!! I just want to be sure you know what your getting yourself into!!! Let us know if you have changed your mind ;-)