Mike was gone Saturday-Tuesday. I was busy with work (which is about 100 different tasks), throwing a baby shower, organizing shirts for our trip to San Fran, bringing a meal to a friend who just had a baby and went back into the hospital, creating fliers for Caden's Oct 24th festival at school, creating a contact list for Caden's class room, taking Caden to his first day of Karate, taking apart A's crib AND putting a Big Girl bed together,and then the normal everyday things of taking and picking up from school, dance class, homework every night, and much much more.
I seriously was ready to crack. I was in tears on Tuesday and on Thursday. I had to cancel going to see my friend on Thursday who was in the hospital, because how could I support someone in need when I was in need of support myself and probably would have just cried with her situation which just isn't supportive ;-)
AND to top it all off, my formal announcement: I have a stress fracture, yet again in at least my right leg. Happened 3 weeks ago after my long run. It throbbed for 3 nights at night and it still hurts to this day. I had no prior injury. I was being really careful in changing up my workouts. I stretched, warmed up and cooled down. I'm frustrated and perplexed. We have NO insurance so I haven't even been able to go in and be assessed, so I've just been doing my recovery from prior experience. We never got the paperwork for Cobra to tide us over and by the time of the 45 days of Mike's old company has to get it to us, we will be on his new one Oct 1st.
My emotional well being depends on being able to work out my stress and I haven't been able to, so it has built up for 3 weeks and I'm like an emotional volcano this week. Being able to share it, is definitely helping right now.
I want to get a bone density scan to see what the heck is going on, because I was told this would never happen again, that my bones would be stronger than ever. Now I think: osteoporosis? I'm only 36 and have always been athletic, involved in all kinds of physical activities, of course except when I'm pregnant.
And great, now another race that I have been looking forward to, I can't do? I hope not, my healing will land me at 7 weeks, which is very doable in healing a stress fracture. I only plan to jog and walk it in San Fran. I missed PF Changs in January, Ragnar, Pat Tillman! I will not miss another one, I don't think I can emotionally take it!
I was on the right road again with health and was back into my clothes as of this past February before the dark cloud of depression took me in with both stress fractures. I won't let it take me again!
So to update on the Zoo, we've been having a lot of fun in the meantime.
We have a new addition: a personal assistant, as she likes to be called ;-), Josie! Very much deserved title too, because if she sees something that needs to be done, she just does it! Such a huge help in our lives! Both my sitters left us in the same week as Mike started his new job. One got a full time job and the other moved back home to NJ. Still need a night time sitter for date nights, thinking of posting that on FB ;-)
The Zoo loves her! She's finished a week with us and she is just so filled with God's Light and a joy to have in our home. We are so honored she took us on!
Caden: Is about to lose yet another tooth. It gives me the willies to look at it because it's hanging to the side it's so ready! He tried karate this week and I promised him no sparring, because I was told that! Well the first thing he was told is he would spar on Monday's and he was already anxious! Then he had to hold a pad and another kid kicked it. That was it for him, he lost his cookies. I saw it happening and ran fast enough into the room and took him to the bathroom. He does not want to go back, and we are okay with that. I love Karate! I took it and got so much joy out of it. School is going great for him! We had a play date with a family over here this past Tuesday and had tons of fun! He is doing well, doing his work and getting great progress reports! I love his love for school! Next week he is the star student and we made his poster today and he filled out his questionnaire for his interview, so cute!
Riordan: Was star student this week in class and it was SO tough on him and his anxiety. He cried for the first time ever, for school, on Tuesday and I had to leave him. It broke my heart! Then I went to try and do the elliptical, but I was consumed with guilt AND it hurt within the first 2 mins, so I went back. He was doing what he used to do in school and that was not engage or look at anyone. His teacher came out and said he was fine to let him do the day but if he started crying again she would call me to come get him. He had a great rest of the day and came back to the boy we know. Relief! He had a great rest of the week with Star Student of the week!
Teagan: Still crying when I drop her off at school. She has only NOT cried two days. But she really really enjoys it once she is over her anxiety of me leaving her, which is what she loves to point out is that she misses me. Kill me now please! She has a friend she just adores in her classroom, Ella, and on Tuesday her mom and I got to witness them holding hands, on their own, while singing a song! It was such a sweet moment and just warmed both our hearts! And everywhere we go she recognizes Ella's "E" in words with such excitement! She is still crying when I take her to dance as well, but again once she is over me leaving her she just shines. It is so great to watch her on the monitor. She can be so silly at times, really breaking out of her shyness and cracks me up a lot lately I find. She loves to play tons of games and really loves to read to Aislinn, it is adorable! We got the kids a Dell to share, finally since our dinosaur crashed again last year, and her favorites to play are MyNoggin and Nick Jr.
Aislinn: The baby, but really is she? She wants to be a big kid like her siblings. Her vocabulary is astounding lately. Sentences! She adores Miss Kerri Lee, her dance teacher and is always acting out what she does in dance class. She got her big girl bed this week and she has been doing great in it, minus the multiple times she gets up in the middle of the night to go potty, BUT she doesn't wake Teagan up anymore with crying, big bonus! We are a bit sleep deprived here lately though. While Caden was at Karate, she was playing with dinosaurs and all of a sudden we hear this deep roaring coming out of her! Didn't even know she knew the two went together. She loves loves loves to play with her babies, dress up with her siblings, read books, put her own shoes on all times of the day, get her hair done when everyone else does (it's filling in!) her favorite food is fruit snacks which to her are simply 'snack!', and she is seriously independent and just 'gets it' at such a young young age! Her Yo Gabba Gabba birthday party is in a couple of weeks! She is so excited for it!
We have a lot of birthday's to celebrate in the next couple of weeks for some really great friends and we are so looking forward to celebrating! Mike is gone again Mon-Friday this time, just a little be here late nite on his birthday Tuesday and gone Wednesday afternoon... It's going to be another hard week. Josie can only come on Tues/Thurs for a couple of hours, but I will take it!
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